Friday its the last day of weekdays!!

U lala its already the stroke of 2.30p.m on friday and count to think of it I hv been wasting my days doing apprximately nothing interesting besides sitting wit my books and getting nothing into my head. Bored and kinda miss my dad which I think is back 4rm sabah today. Training tonite and I hope theres life there not as dull again like before. My legs getting better and yesterday mum was talking about jie's upcoming wedding and engagement and its an OMG!!!for me. Aunts planning a RM10000 buffet lunch and on the wedding day there will be a hair and make up artist there to do my mums and my hair. HUH! Y me...I dont want..HUHU!! JIE I GONNA KILL U!!! But kinda in dilemma here. I dont know wat to wear and how many do I need. Its a traditional chinese ceremony and I become a the guest entertainer. WOW!! wat a lucky post...NOT!! But I'm glad to hv at least 2 days break to enjoy days off 4rm penang nad a relaxing mind into the wildlife. Natu is the best XD

Sweet smelling of trouble and ego is here~

OK for some reason I got back and seriously got angry. My mood was out since yesterday and I reli need to let it go but yet cant cause they is a jerk and a botch ryt there. OK tats kinda too over actually but I'm angry and really feel like want to strangle tat girl FOR GOD SAKE!!!Ok calm down takes time and I think thx to this thing again I got angry..I just hv to forget it. Life being a hs student isnt that easy mostly when we r at the peak towards the end. Godbro said not to think about stuff like this. Popularity comes when u rank and its true. I'll aim and show wat I can but yet TKD tournament I think i kinda or sort of having prob but I'll try to solve it and get there if I can. I muz forget certain things and get into being the usual empty feeling person I am. Something went wrong sumwhere and I'm just not the usual me. Pranks could be done but I started being a caring person. Thats so not me. I cant;t wait to finish SPM and cut all connection with my surrounding and get a life silently as anothr person another place. Obviouly not here. Planning to fly down to Texas and only come back during festive or semester season and hope that might help. I have to have my own time for once and make it ASAP after SPM. Well tats my wish for now I want to get bz to forget stuff. Kindly writing here help me a lot XD bYE~

Wat a week its been ~

Yup its holiday alright and I hate it can u believe that? Dads away with his work again for another 2 weeks and I'm merely stuck at home doing nothing. All I ever done was sit in this room of mine and go crazy. Even tested a skirt and a blouse for godsake. I wore a skirt can u believe that? Here's a pic:



Yup horible and they are asking me to wear it for the upcoming engagement U got to be joking...anyway this holiday worth nothing. I cant wait for SPM to finish and tats wat everyone will be saying ..haiz... thinking about tmrw sucks though. I got tuisyen and I cant follow my mum go out for coffee while my bro go for his exchange classes. I miz spending times like this with my family. Its hard. watever is it I'm dili deli on9 for the whole night doing nothing again...ciao!!

Its a weekend FINALLY!!

OWW YEAH!!!ITS SUNDAY!!! and today I'm waiting every minute on the clock to actually go out and spend time with my dad since he wont be back for another 2 weeks and get my talk ryt with him about droping my subject for SPM.

Eventually I slept at 3 in the morning last nite and they came back bringing me

OLD TOWN toasted bread. It wasn't what I wanted but it'll do.

But the worst thing is I got up 10.30a.m fot the 1st time.

Its awesome to get up late but its not awesome to miss the outing cause

THEY LEFT WITHOUT ME!! HEHE!!

who cares I'm alone and fee thats particular

and I plan to spend every inch of time to read my new book i got 4rm the library

which is the FARMER GOT A WIFE...ok the title sucks but the

story is awesome...I want to hv breakfast!!!

but i dont know what to eat cause I finish the last packet of maggi mee yesterday HAHA...

well now I want to go and find for breakfast..CIAO!!!

Wat an Exahausted day...

TO begin with, this is the last day of semester 1 and holiday break for a week and thank god I havent been that grateful b4 in my life.

First let me start on how my condition happen "this Way"
yesterday we had TKD training in school like always and we were training under master with those protective gear and awesome techniques (we sort of use the time to bash our friends up) and then exchanged partner and got serious injury on my leg,..TAS a WOW factor...was limping the whole day even too tuisyen my god and even knock my head on the wall when I fall asleep...it was damn embarassing I almost squeled...and today was quite ok actually I can walk properly but my joints was terrible sensitive and I say this sucks...I enjoy sparring but i dont enjoy the after effect.....


today back 4rm school, dad came back finally after 2 weeks din come back, mum too, and I hit my leg at the damn f-ing corner out of nowhere it just muz target tat place...Oh CRAP!!!and st annes training I can cover can move but my legs was shaking like hell when we started training..who cares I went to have fun YEAH!!but the nerd talk to me so much stuff just I din transfer the information yet it was stupid...

after training which I jiff of the last black belt training because I swear one hit at those hurtful pats and I'll be dead retarded for another month!!! and I head back home..so here I am with a double injured leg of the day and making my sis irritated wit my complains which i enjoy doing since shes irritating me as well earlier...haha...well its already 12.20 midnite and I'm off to bed tmrw is saturday and I hv job to do..(i think)...NITEZ GUYS!!!

OMG life is sucking like HELL!!!

seriously I didnt rite on this blog 4 juz a few days and I feel like ages. Well actually this week is a heck of a week and I got so dman emo on tuesday and wednesday cause of a stupid reason which broke out in school. Peoples mouth just cant shut up can they cause they tend to make u more irritate by time just to get ur attention. SO what if I and him look close nothing much ler kira brother nya aiiyoo...so dman frustrating if i caught tat person spreading this how i swear I'll make sure i burn and torcher her alive. it totally shake me to the max and now I'm worried how if black mailling came into action OMG!!!I swear I'll kill myself 4rm a 4 foot building. Haiz coupling at such an age I'm not like that ler for god sake this SUCKS I TELL U!! Exam is on monday and I got no mood at all to study since the gossip broke out. Hello we were dman discipline we didnt do anything wrong just senior junior lai aiiyoo!!! He is my instructor although he is the same belt but I got manners lah for god sake. I not some Bitch and I dont couple so they r, JEEZ!!damn pissed ler Ok tats bad I throw all out at one blow and the worst the juniors is getting spiced up and sorry next year I'm not gonna step my foot into the schoo again unless its sports day ler and take my exam slip. Cause after SPM I'm having fun oww yeah!!!

OK 4get SPM after all now itelf like shit ni cannot study so well I'm so dead I tell u and nowlah my mind wants to wonder off haiz...suffercating here. Well I suppose today ni I stop till here after exam ni I'll continue cause I muz go study d and tonite got tuisyen..haiz...bye guys..XD

Wat a day ~....

Well like it say The rain doesnt start without a thunder same as me my emotion doesnt shake without a reason. Today was really a day I dont want to remember and it may be 1.10 in the morning and people will think I'm insane writing craps here well I just want to for fun . I dont know what have happen but seriously my emotion shake to the max may be because my fever hasnt subside or just I had too much for a day. How I hate it ended this way ~sigh~.But all I culd say is I still havent recovered yet from my shock that my friend have just move out leaving a would without a treachery behind and of course building a new life and adapting to the environment would take time bt yet I may look like a girl with no feelings but when its shake to the max theres no telling how I would feel for example I broke down into tears and ended up sorting my Best friend to consult me and she's right this is the time if I want to cry I should cry and give out all I have so that tomorrow I can start a new life and adapt to whats there left for me. I dont dare start something new I dont dare open my feelings anymore cause this didnt happen for the 1st time. it may be a different situation but its still the same having feeling SUCKS LIKE HELL!!!all you get when u were left is desperate attempt to get back to the same road you enjoyed before which of coure it wont.

Mom saw my reaction today and ask me what happen all I do us "nothing , you wont understand" and continued closing my eyes pretending that I'm tired but deep down inside how I wish I could tell her but it will ended up worst. I dont want to be a cry baby with no care on the line. If i want to achieve my dreams the 1st step to it is learn how to be responsible towards my own life like the book says Thick Face Black Heart and theres no telling what type of monster I can be I just have to accept it no matter what. But one thing for sure I had freinds that stood at the back of me supporting me silently and thats how my days will be no doubt and it sounds better. And best thing my TKD senior say I was so dman ~EMO!~ I was like...WHA????cause the word emo sounds like a person wit black and words like yo mama, uh huh, naah, bla!!!!HAHAX....but he help me out too besides Ruve which of course I dont know why cause he was the 1st in my list that wants to bully me and I wrongly Accused him of pakat-ing wit her..So SORRY!!!!MY FAULT!!!and I jus came to realise and want to tell him when I think he wne t and slept already so theres always another day for stuff like those and now I jut want to get back to school and concentrate on my SPM so that after SPM I can go to work and hang out with friends and of course fight wit my dad to be a better person and a better courier than him since thats what he have aimed for me and next year CNY is gonna be awesome....ok I crap dont know go where alredi. I think I'll stop here and crap tomorrow again. Nitez GUYS!!!!