I hate Teen life!

Currently I am in such confusion that thinking of suicidal was nvr left from my mind for even a day! But todays event totally test my patient. I tend to make a raw deal and check out my movement before making my move to understand that particular person. Like I said dont judge a book by its cover and its the same as this dont judge a person by its awkward character or pretty faces. Feel really like want to curse but I'm holding back. I know its currently giving a bad effect on someone which totally trusted her for her life. I make stuff quiet but if u embark on a stupid reason such as jealousy this is what happen!! Its SPM year and i understand stuff like this is so disturbing! I dont want to end up in a psychiatric ward for heaven sake! I'm currently ignoring everyone. My attitude is hard to be read by others not only them but even me! So the previous bitch that ruins my life isnt here anymore and i taught I'm in peace but not! currently I'm in a state of becoming a monster! Yeah! and u know how it feels? It feels AWESOMELY !!! as in AWESOMELY TERRIBLE!!! I can't wait to deprive myself from this! SPM come fast gak me away for once!..haiz~ the more i type the more i will talk about my cursing words! I think its better i stop now~
 CIAO~~!!